Mother

This is the most special song I have ever composed. It is so close to my heart.

Close to five years ago, my mother was diagnosed with cancer. She was given three months to live. Through the miraculous grace of God and tireless efforts of my family, we were able to extend her life for two more years.

Toward the end, she'd had multiple strokes. She had lost her ability to speak and could barely write anything legible. We knew it was nearing the end.

One night, while lying in bed, a melody began to reveal itself to me, and the words to the first verse and chorus came to my mind. As quickly as I could, I typed it all into my phone, then wrote up the song the next day. I made a super rough recording of it, then sent it to my sister, who was caring for my mother at her home. She played it for her, then sent me a picture back of my mother listening to it, tears streaming down her face. She loved it. I love that moment. I love that I'll forever have that memory to hold onto.

Weeks passed, and all too soon, my mother. The song was beautiful. My sisters and I were planning on singing it at my mother's funeral the next day. There was only one problem - it was too short. I knew it wasn't complete. So, I decided to write a second verse. And, as if the heavens opened up and revealed it to me, the words flowed from my fingers to the page as easily as if I'd already known them. My mother helped me. I know she was guiding my mind that day. I know she lives on, and continues to guide me and my family.

I am so grateful for the gift of composing music. I know it is never just me. The Lord helps me. My mother helps me. This song is proof. I hope you enjoy it, and that someday it can be sung in as meaningful a moment as it was for me writing it.